Moving Campus

While dealing with the change of losing my home and a parent, I received news along with everyone else in my school that it was closing down and we were moving to a rival school's campus.  None of us were happy but we are all given the choice of transferring without any extra charges or staying with the same school but just transferring to the other school's location. I already didn't fit in and now I was totally uprooting the little I knew of as a norm. It was farther from my home and it was full of girls I didn't even know. I was uncomfortable but made do. The teachers were great and helped us all adjust pretty well.

So, for someone going through what I have, this added more worry to my plate. I had several issues with the way I viewed my body and being around even more teenage girls didn't help much. It's not that they teased me or did anything wrong. I was just that self conscious. I never had a thought about changing my eating habits it exercising besides gym class. I sat alone at lunch or ate with a teacher. That was what I did and I was content but lonely. I didn't have my mom to pick me up or to talk to after a hard day. It was just me, myself and I. I had tried talking to family but they just completely blew me off. I even had one family member blab to another about something I told them in confidence. That's life, I guess.

Well, once sophomore year ended, it was time for junior ring. I had to be fitted for my junior ring....an embarrassing thought for my heavy self. All the other girls we're getting from 4s to 6s and mine came out to be a 9. It was hard to hear but it was my weight causing the sizing. I then overheard someone in my class making jokes about girls with size 9 or larger rings...saying they should lay off the cookies..it hurt. I was living a life I dreaded and right after my mom passed away, I used my artwork and writing as a way to express my feelings. I had nowhere else to turn so I used my time to better myself. It proved to me that I had true talent and it was a God given talent. I just had to work on myself, and that will be a continuous work in progress.